Love is pain

Sadness. Sad. That is what i can describe my feelings now. It seems to be like the past years where my tears drop almost everyday. I dont want to tell people my problems each time. I dont want them to know how bad I feel each day but sometimes I cant stand it. Falling in love is not easy. It is so painful. I wonder why people say 'Love is pain'. Now I know what that means. I wake up each day with a broken heart. The feeling of waiting is so painful for me. But it seems to be easy for him. Do u know hows the feeling when u are being ignored by a person that u care so much and would do anything for him? If yes, than probably u will know exactly how i feel. Sometimes I feel so lonely. I keep on waiting but at the end, I'm the one that he shouted at. That time I feel like walking slowly and go deeply into the the sea. To see whether he truly love me or not.

Sometimes I feel like a stranger to him. Like he doesnt care hows ur feeling. Love, why are u so pain? How much tears do u want to take it from me?

But one thing that keep me happy and alive is because of my lovely family. My mum who always there for me no matter what. My sister that cares for me. My lil brothers who shines my day. I'm thankful for that Allah. Thank you for giving me a wonderful and healthy family.

Maybe now I should learn to give him some space. Maybe he doesn't love me like he used to. I love him so much and I pray to God to give me strength to take this as a conjecture.

*note: be strong no matter in what situation! There is always people behind u that will support u. Insyaallah.