Roses Chocolate

I'm a chocolate lover. I can't live without it. Where can I buy this Cadbury Roses chocolate? :( I used to eat when I was little. But there is no more in Malaysia I guess. So sad! Anyhow, Cadbury should sell this Roses in Malaysia. Although is quite expensive but its worth it.

This chocolate makes me way tempting. My favorite is the strawberry dream. Oh my, I'm drooling when I see this chocolates. Crazy huh? But thats me :) Second, I love Tangy Orange Creme. I love chocolate that has filling in it. And u know what, I just love all kinds of Cadbury chocolates!

Love is pain

Sadness. Sad. That is what i can describe my feelings now. It seems to be like the past years where my tears drop almost everyday. I dont want to tell people my problems each time. I dont want them to know how bad I feel each day but sometimes I cant stand it. Falling in love is not easy. It is so painful. I wonder why people say 'Love is pain'. Now I know what that means. I wake up each day with a broken heart. The feeling of waiting is so painful for me. But it seems to be easy for him. Do u know hows the feeling when u are being ignored by a person that u care so much and would do anything for him? If yes, than probably u will know exactly how i feel. Sometimes I feel so lonely. I keep on waiting but at the end, I'm the one that he shouted at. That time I feel like walking slowly and go deeply into the the sea. To see whether he truly love me or not.

Sometimes I feel like a stranger to him. Like he doesnt care hows ur feeling. Love, why are u so pain? How much tears do u want to take it from me?

But one thing that keep me happy and alive is because of my lovely family. My mum who always there for me no matter what. My sister that cares for me. My lil brothers who shines my day. I'm thankful for that Allah. Thank you for giving me a wonderful and healthy family.

Maybe now I should learn to give him some space. Maybe he doesn't love me like he used to. I love him so much and I pray to God to give me strength to take this as a conjecture.

*note: be strong no matter in what situation! There is always people behind u that will support u. Insyaallah.

24-7

'I want you to be always by my side'. That is always what people wish for. So do I, but its impossible. He always said to me, I will be bored if he always be beside me. But not for me. I just love being surrounded by the people that I love. Not I'm asking him to sit around me 24-7, but I just want him to be there whenever I need someone to talk to. 

See, he always get busy with his job. Yeah, I know nowadays people are trying hard to survive but when we work hard, we tend to stress out and need more time to rest. He always doesn't have time for himself either. I'm so pity for him.  But one thing I loved about him, is that he always try to see me no matter how busy he is. Like those days, he came to my house almost every night and he didn't tell me his coming. Well, I do love suprise but sometimes I'm not neat and need some time before I see him. 

Time! Oh, time! We always did not had enough time when we were together. Its like we wished that the time would just freeze for a moment to capture the memory. Oh, my. I wish it will be true.

What do I want in my life...

Sometimes I don't even know what I want in life. What am I going to do in future. But what I want is to get married and live happily with my partner and may god give me children that are smart and healthy. I want him to be always with me whenever I'm sad nor happy. And sincere only to me. His past make me worried. I know people deserve a 2nd chance in life but would he be sincere to me? Even now I'm waiting for his sincere. Sometimes I act a lil bit crazy because I do love him so much and hope to be his future wife that can care for him always. Although not everyone are perfect but that is my wish. People use to say to me, we can achieve it if we have dream. But we just don't know when. So I can just wait patiently. I'm not a patient person. I do what I think the best and till I'm satisfied. Before, I seldom think before I do something but experience teach us and now I'm a bit patient than past time. 

In life, sometimes we cannot trust what people tell us. So I decide not to share my story with others. Every person have their own opinion. When we ask few person, I'll bet that u will get kinds of answer to ur question and that u will just keep thinking whether is it right or not to listen. 

I'm a talkative person but when I think, I'll be motionless. It can take the whole day too. Because when I think, I don't like to talk. Although there are so many things in my mind, I just like to keep it to myself. I feel more ease like that. When u talk to me, I'll be like a dumb person. So just don't bother bout it. I'll be just fine on my own. It's not that I don't want to share with u but it's hard for me to voice it out. Its like I need some space for my own. 

Motionless - Kelley Saint –


So you’d always hold me, close and near.

If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,

In your arms, where I’m meant to be,

Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.

A bond so strong, a hold so tight,

To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr. Right’.

A blessing sent from up above,

In you I’ve found my one true love.

Our lives entwined to be as one,

Upon this journey we’ve just begun.

Where you and I will find no less,

Than eternal love and happiness.

Let it flow~

There is a story about a petite Princess in a small town name Rania. She loves to be surrounded by people but she is not ease to fall in love. She is quite choosy and talkative. Girls always got jealous of her beauty and because she is just petite. She has a red heart shape lips that makes her smile look sweet. She loves attention as she is always been treated like a baby in the town.

Rania had experienced falling in love for a few times but it doesn’t work for her. Now she is engaged to Prince Gary but she doesn’t feel the happiness anymore with him after being together for such a long time. Now she is lost in her heart. She doesn’t know where she belongs. She doesn’t talk much and begin to stay far away from people.

On one evening fine day, her heart had been stolen by someone from the coffee house. She had fallen in love when she met her eyes with that guy. From then, she always make her way to the coffee house just to see what he is doing and wondering when he will approach. When she went there and found that guy is not around, she will ask the waiter about him. She tries to find out as much information about him. In other side, she doesn’t know that the guy always wait patiently for her. He wanted to approach but he doesn’t have the guts to do it. So he waits for the right day, right place and the right time.

Till the valentine day comes, he asked Rania to wait for him and he ran to the nearest shop to buy her a flower. But he took quite sometimes to get back, and Rania went off from the coffee house as she thought that the guy was fooling around. 

The next day, a friend of that guy asks Rania why she did not waited for them. Rania felt guilty but she doesn’t show that way. After few days had passed, suddenly someone approach her while she was waiting for her friend. And it was the guy that she had waited for so long. He introduces himself as Danny and stood with her for a while. 

From that moment, Danny always accompanies Rania wherever she goes. They watch midnight movies every weekend, talk all night long and spend the rest of the time talking about each other. Rania feel ease whenever his around. But then, Rania got to know that Danny has engaged. Rania felt guilty and she thought of running far away from him as she doesn’t want to ruin their future. But her heart doesn’t let her to run.

“Now let the time flow and let the love grow. Let it be, and then they shall know. But for real or not, we don't know.

It will be when we have faith in our heart and trust in love one. May the love is true and may God show the way for the happiness ending that will last in eternity.” -Rania&Dani-

written by: Bella La